Start Over?

High school seems like an eternity ago.  Granted it has almost been a decade for me (look at me showing my age lol) but still some things seem like they happened yesterday.  For some high school was the time of their lives.  The star athlete, the head cheerleader and the popular kid all remember high school fondly.    But do those people ever think what HS was like for the loner, the academic or the kid who was constantly picked on?  Personally I hated every second of high school.  The classes were far too easy, the students were beyond immature and I just never felt like I fit in.  So as a consequence I did whatever I could to get out of the place ASAP.  I took all honors classes and then I decided since I had enough credits I would just go ahead and skip my junior year.  OH BOY was that a mistake!  I was 17 years old, a high school graduate and I could not get into a university.  SMH.  If I could do it all over again I sure the hell would.  Going from high school straight to a community college is like being a 5th year senior.  Yes I was in college but at the same time everyone that took the easy road like me was at the same community college.  I was in such a rush to leave HS that I didn't stop to think what it would do to my future.  It took me almost 7 years to realize that I did want a college education.  Now I'm a junior and finally at a university and man, I feel so old!  I know that there are people in their 40's and 50's still in college but I think I'm just upset with myself for procrastinating for so many years.  

I'm not sure if it's the American dream, but isn't a true college experience something that everyone feels they should take part in?  I see these 18 and 19 year old kids walking around on campus and I think to myself "That should have been me."  I never got to go away to school, live in the dorms or join a sorority if I wanted.  I feel like my late teens and early 20's flew past me.  Sometimes I wonder if other people my age or older ever feel this way?  Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited and proud of myself that I did come back to get my degree.  But if I could do it all over again..... YOU BET YOUR ASS I WOULD! 

You should stop frontin' babe

We all know the type, the person that "exaggerates" their lives, their jobs and everything about them.  Then we all know the types that flat out lie about everything around them.  It's a sad day when you can count more people frontin' then the ones who actual are honest.  I understand that sometimes you wanna try and impress people or you want certain people to like you. But should you have to compromise your integrity to be likeable?  I could care less if you have a car, money or a nice house.  If you are a good person and I get along with you then we will be friends no matter what.  Personally I can think of one person in particular who fronts the most.  This person, lets call them "X", is an especially serious compulsive liar.  When X and I are out on the town, X has the tendency to lie to every new person we meet.  X may start with a small lie like name and age.  Then the lies grow.  Now X is lying about place of residence, type of car, job even where X is from.  It boggles my mind that anyone would want to start a new friendship or even relationship that is based upon lies.  When people find out that you are lying about the simplest things, they assume that you are lying all the time.  See since I see that X lies to people we don't even know, then isn't it safe to assume that X lies to me?  It really can't be that bad to just be yourself.  If you're broke, be broke.  If you live with your mom, then tell that girl you live with your mom.  If you don't have a car, don't have a job and you don't take care of your kids then just fess up.  People respond much more positively to the truth then they do lies.  Yes lies may seem easier at first but in the long run they ruin everything.  

Then you have the people who are just plain frontin to look cool.  Those are not your jewels, that is not your money and that is not your car.  Why pretend to have something that you don't?  People need to start being proud of who they are.  Yes I live alone but guess what I don't own the home I live in.  I have a 1995 Toyota camry with a door handle missing, duct tape on the headlight and 2 missing hubcaps.  I do not have designer clothes or handbags.  But guess what?  I'm happy with who I am.  What I do have is an education, a job, a car that gets me from point a to point b, a roof over my head and I always have enough to eat.  If people don't like me because I'm not rich, flashy or over the top then I don't want those people in my life.  Start thinking more of yourself people.  Forget what the next person has or what they expect you to have.  In the long run just STOP FRONTIN'!