Sometimes all the words that a woman wants to hear is "I Love You." But when the words are just words with no meaning do we still want to hear them? I wonder at times do we just want to have the thought of being loved thrown out there or do we truly and deeply want to have someone love us? Unfortunately there are so many people that just throw these words around nowadays. I can't lie and say that I've never said it when I didn't mean it. I have told a few people I love them because they said it first and it was an awkward moment. I never really used to think about love or relationships like I do now. I'm not sure if the topics float around more in my mind now because I am older or because I alone. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with being single. I love being able to what I want when I want without it affecting anyone else. I enjoy sleeping in my own bed by myself and being lazy on the weekends looking a mess if I feel like it. Then there are those days when that bed isn't so great being all empty. Or those Saturday nights out on the town with a bunch of rowdy twenty somethings really isn't that much fun. Even though I'm an amazing single woman who has a lot going for her, it would be nice to have someone to come home to every now and then. Ok, I'm not Betty Crocker nor Martha Stewart but I wouldn't mind having someone to cook for at night. Maybe the answer to my sporadic loneliness isn't a man. Maybe I just need a puppy. LMAO Honestly though, is it just me that wonders is it time to stop the clubbing and get serious about my life? Maybe it is time to stop bar hopping and focus on being an adult. I don't know anymore. The clubs are fun and I enjoy spending time with my friends. But then again I like being at home in the comfort of my room. I guess there is enough time in my life to still do both. Back to the love idea now. Is it the words that many of us are just looking for or do we really want to be in a committed loving relationship? Personally I'm not sure. My ex used to tell me he loved me all the time. This happened after one 3 or 4 weeks of dating. I admit it was fast and for that reason I felt that it was just words and they were shallow. Did I enjoy hearing them? OF COURSE! It had been years since a man other than my dad had told me that he loves me. I was basking in the thought that maybe I had actually found a guy that loves me and maybe I could love him back. Then I realized I was a girlfriend now. That's when the fear set in. The phone calls started all day long asking where I was and what I was doing. Then it's like I was a child again. I felt as if I had to check in with my parents or I would get in trouble. All I could think was "Is hearing I love you really worth it?" I was making a lot of sacrifice just for a few words and a feeling they gave me when they were said. Finally after arguing all the damn time with the kid I gave up and told him we had to go separate ways. He swears he still loves me. But honestly can you fall in love with someone without knowing that much about them? Many people say that they believe in love at first sight. But I have a feeling that its not love at first sight they are feeling but the hope that they could fall in love and maybe that person is the one they will settle for. Well ladies and gentlemen this is one lady who is never again going to just settle. Watch out LOVE cause I'll be watching you and all your little tricks you like to play.
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